Lets see back then

I was like a little girl searching her own tracks to know what is life. And then you come.
we text a lot. And i can feel that you have something to me. It's the way you treated me, the way you talk to me.
I was afraid. So i ask you to date my cousin. (that was the stupidest decision i've ever made i swear!)

and time goes by and people start ask me to date him date him date him and yeah. i dated some guys, had feelings for them and feel lost.

you know, all i think about the past is that they're just the stepping stones in my teenage life. they're just those lessons in order for me to grow. i know how's people, i can read if they're nice or bad, its all because these experiences. and you know that you're the biggest part of my teenage life. you were always there for me. until now.

you dont need to feel you should beat who beat who. you are already what i want. you are all i need.
you dont need to be jealous of them. i know you just afraid of losing me. but you already here. you're the one. what are you afraid of? okay, sometimes i like it when you get jealous ;3 but too much jealousy makes me feel like i dont know what to do ==

and i do get jealous too sometimes. when you're with those friends of yours who are girls of course. cause yeah im afraid. what if i lose you? what if you choose them instead of me? what if you treat me different because of them? what if?

you need to know that i enjoy talking with guys. most of my friends are guys. you were one too remember?
but at school, we only talk. no holding hands, walking side by side, lunch together. there's no such a thing.
we only talk and laughs at jokes. no touchytouchy -_- and also when im with those guys, im not the only girl there. i know how to treasure  my self. if i cant treasure my self then there's no use you treasure me right?
i know.
then there comes last night, you said such a deal like "its okay for you to go out with those guys, dont get jealous when im with those girls too okay"
its like wth man, i dont go out with them. if i ever go out with them its when we had some assignments by group and some other urgents like when i was sick at school and the class' chairman brings me home remember?
we dont need that deal what. how can i dont get jealous? you know what? the way you told it to me is like asking for my agreement to cheat on me. and you end it with "night!:)" dafuq?
i reply it with :):) cant you see they're fake?!
gahh
we dont need that stupid deal. i know where i stand and you know where you stand. we're in this relationship. you sure know there're those lines between you and your friends. i know too.
we put the US in TRUST babe. remember?
there's not a thing that gonna change my love for you.

damn. waiting for 2pm seems so long -_-