Rocky trails.

its getting rocky and the flowers doesnt seem to grow anymore,

the night doesnt even starry.

whats wrong?

was it something I did? or was it something you said?

Report card, the big shit....

going to get my report card of this term on this Saturday 22nd

aannddd....

i dont know how it will be

i hope its good and i dont have any remedials :|

and my mom is not willing to take the report card.

i dont know~ i dont wanna know~

haisss

poor me -_-

A True Friend

So, i read a novel earlier this morning. it was greattttt. i literally cries TvT
here's a quote from the novel

"A true friend knows your weakness

but shows you your strength

 feels your fears but fortifies your faith

sees your anxieties but free your spirit

recognize your disabilities

but emphasizes your possibilities"

by the way,the novel is Morning Light. written by Windhy Puspitadewi

Lemme tell you how's living without phone feels like

LAME.

My Ambition

now that im at eleventh grade, im starting to wonder how the future me will be. what will i be in 8years?

well, you also know that my parents are not rich. but thats not a problem.
even if people always look down on me because im not rich. i would never go down :)
money is not everything,
i know it right. i have been in that darkest moment that no one would ever want to know.
but here i am, living a happy life. not really happy. at least yeah hahaha and what more important is i have people who care for me around me :)

i want to be a pharmacist. i want to be a scientist. it feels great to help people.
i want to be doctor. of course i do. but it cost much money and take so many years to graduate. and they are too many doctors nowadays, feel like a waste if i also want to be a doctor.
one of my cousins once asked me 'do you want to be the boss or the worker?'
it makes me think. everyone would answer that they want to be the boss. i want too.
but seems like im going to be the worker first.
she asked me to take another major. cause taking pharmacy wouldnt success? yeah something like that.
so i think to my self.
i enjoy pharmacy. i love working with those medicines. reading the doctor's awful writing, helping people, it just feels great.
and i want to work in Kalbe. one of the biggest factory in south asia.
they told me they get a good salary there. enough to let em buy an iPad with just working for a month. isnt that kinda much? hahaha

and i want to be like that guy at Bones. yeah, that tv series. inventing vaccine, looking at the tiny little creature through microscope *.*

my friend once asked me, 'will you get married first or what?'
well, i want to get married. but i want to be success first. isnt it great to not having to burden your hubby later? and survey shows that success women often success on their marriage too. hohoho
"it feels better to cry on a Ferrari than crying on a bicycle" ;)
ganbatte people! we can do it! ^^ and wish me luck too O:)

My dad took my phone :(

i didnt answer his call. yeah he called 3 times. my phone was on silent so i didnt hear it.
so just that, he told me i may not use my phone.
till when? dont know :|

that makes me hard to communicate with everyone. especially, him.
but i think not having a phone is good too.
well, i value my time and my life.
hahaha
when i have a phone, its like i can just sit there for hours, replying those bbms, doing nothing.
but now, i cant see messy things. i messed the room, and i'll just tidy it up again,
feeling like a neatfreak but it feels much better ._.

and well, i feel like im a too attached girlfriend, maybe with this, i can train my self to not be like possessive?
dont know. feel like im the one who always get too much in this relationship. my friend said i should give less, and a man should give more. lets try then. i dont think i can :x

Yooooo!!

feels so long since I last posted anything here
well, it's exams season
im busy studying and stuff
soooo.... here's the story of the month

Last Monday (Dec 3rd) someone said he's not coming back to Dumai because he will be busy for college preparation. And I believed! Guess what happens? Yeah. He showed up at my cousin's coffeeshop! He said it was a surprise -,- i cant believe he could trick me twice! yeah TWICE! the first was on my birthday. hahaha
but well I'm happy :$ no one could make me happier than he could.

It seems like been a year since we are in this relationship. but we dont know when is the Anniversary.
this is funny xD we are not like other couples. yeah, we are awesome B)
so last night, we make a deal for the Anniversary. We'll celebrate it on this 17!

its like this when it comes to most of other couple
Le boyfriend : "hey i like you, would you like to be my girlfriend?"
Le girlfriend : "aww me too. thanks"
celebrate 1st month anniversary a month later, and broke up in the 3rd month.

while it comes to us *after being 'friends' for 3 years
him : "actually, i love you"
me : "i love you too"
its not that short though, but i make it short. The matter is that, we are much simpler than others B) i cant remember when the last we quarreled. oh well, we never really have a quarrel. lol

at last, here's what i wanna say.
i find him amazing. it might be scary to say since im still 16 but yeah, i love him.♥