Lets see back then

I was like a little girl searching her own tracks to know what is life. And then you come.
we text a lot. And i can feel that you have something to me. It's the way you treated me, the way you talk to me.
I was afraid. So i ask you to date my cousin. (that was the stupidest decision i've ever made i swear!)

and time goes by and people start ask me to date him date him date him and yeah. i dated some guys, had feelings for them and feel lost.

you know, all i think about the past is that they're just the stepping stones in my teenage life. they're just those lessons in order for me to grow. i know how's people, i can read if they're nice or bad, its all because these experiences. and you know that you're the biggest part of my teenage life. you were always there for me. until now.

you dont need to feel you should beat who beat who. you are already what i want. you are all i need.
you dont need to be jealous of them. i know you just afraid of losing me. but you already here. you're the one. what are you afraid of? okay, sometimes i like it when you get jealous ;3 but too much jealousy makes me feel like i dont know what to do ==

and i do get jealous too sometimes. when you're with those friends of yours who are girls of course. cause yeah im afraid. what if i lose you? what if you choose them instead of me? what if you treat me different because of them? what if?

you need to know that i enjoy talking with guys. most of my friends are guys. you were one too remember?
but at school, we only talk. no holding hands, walking side by side, lunch together. there's no such a thing.
we only talk and laughs at jokes. no touchytouchy -_- and also when im with those guys, im not the only girl there. i know how to treasure  my self. if i cant treasure my self then there's no use you treasure me right?
i know.
then there comes last night, you said such a deal like "its okay for you to go out with those guys, dont get jealous when im with those girls too okay"
its like wth man, i dont go out with them. if i ever go out with them its when we had some assignments by group and some other urgents like when i was sick at school and the class' chairman brings me home remember?
we dont need that deal what. how can i dont get jealous? you know what? the way you told it to me is like asking for my agreement to cheat on me. and you end it with "night!:)" dafuq?
i reply it with :):) cant you see they're fake?!
gahh
we dont need that stupid deal. i know where i stand and you know where you stand. we're in this relationship. you sure know there're those lines between you and your friends. i know too.
we put the US in TRUST babe. remember?
there's not a thing that gonna change my love for you.

damn. waiting for 2pm seems so long -_-

Future?

"How's your school?" Fine.
"What you gonna be when you're older?" I dont know yet.

Im sick of these questions I got when I met those strangers who acquire themselves as my mom's friends or some relatives that I've never see ==
And yeah, I've been thinking about it though.

Seems like my school gonna be just fine. I sometimes hate it but I also enjoying it. I often compare my school to my old school too. But now, I think I get it. Times goes on. Everything changes and you can't help but accept it. I'm starting to enjoy those stupid jokes by my classmates.

What am I gonna be? A doctor, pharmacist, engineer, anthropologist, teacher, a public relation? or simply a business woman or a lovely wife? lol I dont know what I want to be.
When I was younger, I want to be a vet cause I love dogs. Everytime I see a dog, I pointed at it and say "Mom, look! doggy! can we bring him home?" hahaha at least thats what my mom told me. And in SMP I want to be an engineer, teacher and public relation -_-" and now, I'm starting to think that maybe I might just be a pharmacist. It only takes like 4 years in college. Then I'll be 21 when I graduated. Then I'll be working in the city for 4 years and get married when I turns 25<3 hahaha! see? well-planned ;p

Perfect Two

You can be the peanut butter to my jelly
You can be the butterfly I feel in my belly
You can be the captain and I can be your first mate
You can be the chills that I feel on our first date

You can be the hero and I can be your sidekick
You can be the tear that I cry if we ever split
You can be the rain from the cloud when it's stormin
Or you can be the sun when it shines in the mornin'

Don't know if I could ever be
Without you cause boy you complete me
And in time I know that we'll both see
That we're all we need

Cause you're the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna marry

Cause you're the one for me
And I'm the one for you
You take the both of us
And we're the perfect two

We're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
Baby me and you
We're the perfect two

You can be the prince and I can your princess
You can be the sweet tooth I can be your dentist
You can be the shoes and I can be the laces
You can be the heart that I spill on the pages

You can be the vodka and I can be the chaser
You can be the pencil and I can be the paper
You can be as cold as the winter weather
But I don't care as long as we're together


Don't know if I could ever be
Without you cause boy you complete me
And in time I know that we'll both see
That we're all we need

Cause you're the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna marry


Cause you're the one for me
And I'm the one for you
You take the both of us
And we're the perfect two

We're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
Baby me and you
We're the perfect two


You know that I'll never doubt ya
And you know that I think about ya
And you know that I can't live without ya

I love the way that you smile
And maybe in just a while
I can see me walk down the aisle


Cause you're the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna marry


Cause you're the one for me
And I'm the one for you
You take the both of us
And we're the perfect two


We're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
Baby me and you
We're the perfect two

You know what? I feel like i can relate to this song. Its so true! Every line of this song is just ahh<3 hahaha! and i do think we're the perfect two. I complete you and you complete me. and i can see my self walking down the aisle. with you of course<3 ><
Thats what people says. When you're in love, those silly love songs seems to make sense ;;)

Modern Family

Been watching this tv series lately
lemme tell you the storyline
its about Jay Pritchett who sits at the head of a large and unconventional family. Now he's in his second marriage with a gorgeous young wife, Gloria, Jay has been given something of a second chance. Still, old habits are hard to break, and it's trial by fire as he tries to adapt to life with the same passion and vigor that Gloria exhibits, which are matched by her precocious 12-year-old son, Manny. There are some culture clashes, a few misunderstandings, but also plenty of sweet victories along the way. Jay's grown daughter, Claire, and her husband, Phil, are the proud parents of three kids with whom they want that open, healthy, honest relationship. It's not always easy, especially when you have Haley, a teenage daughter who's growing up a little fast, Alex, a too-smart-for-her-own-good middle daughter and Luke, a scatterbrained boy. Add to this that Phil is just a big kid himself, even if he does always have the best intentions.

and its funny! you know how the family have the straights, gays, multicultural ahhh thats just beautiful!
my favorite is Manny! he's 12 but talks like 21!
he's a sweet little guy indeed

see? he's cute! ;;)

am watching to season 2 noww :3

he e e e e lo o o o

here we are in April!
and the seniors will be doing their final exams on next Monday
wish 'em luck ;D

i got 4days off which is kinda making me feel relieved but
yeah there's always that shitty but -_-
i got like tons of homeworks to do!
scumbag teacher
ask us to do homework but dont have time to grade our papers what -_-

and btw we're having that term test at 2nd week of June!
gaaahhhhh
so damn fasttt

and lately i've been havin problem with this trigos -_-
okay they're fun but i just hate it
-__-"

here we are :)

he's now here in town
breathin the same air with me
ya know, im getting pretty excited to see him
and yeah we've met for like 3times?
hahaha
im happy havin him around
i love the way he smiles
the way he hugs me
kiss me
tease me
the way he told me he loves me
and when im in those arms
i feel real safe
real comfortable
ahhh
lame? thanks. yes i am
hahaha

i know you're reading this :p
anyway, if there ever goes a day by that i forget to tell you i love you,
im sorry. i want you to know that i do. i always do.
xoxo