i hate HIM

Mr. Charming
yeah its about him.. again.

so in this few weeks, we have that kind of relationship which is hard to explain.
we're like dating but we're not.
he's afraid his friends know that he likes me.
he told me that he likes me.
yeah he did.

i dont know what to do.

i was just afraid that i might loses him
and now.... he's gone
he would never talk to me
he doesnt even want to look at me
even a glance
this is hurting me

i hate the way i give him too much
i hate the way i love him too much
i hate the way i expect too much

so that night,
august 10th
i made such a decision
i told him "we can be friends"

AND I WAS REALLY STUPID TO TOLD HIM SO!!
i hate me :((